"You cried but you learned to smile again"
Tay and I ironically signed up for the same hour of spanish junior year and by God's will we were assigned seats RIGHT next to each other.
Okay, this is awkward, we actually had never talked and had no concrete reason to not be friends. We were in a high school of less than 350 students, so made up disagreements were sort of a thing. Stupid I know but thats a story for another day.
It is so funny to me now because we had no idea that we had both walked into those 2 glass doors that year, ready to start over, ready to heal and ready to be in charge of our own lives.
It was that moment in every girls life where you finally realize how stupid boys are and how sometimes they do muster up enough power to make you cry.
As you may have guessed, those awkward 50 minutes in spanish eventually turned into full blown heart to hearts. When I say heart to heart I want you to understand that the things we confided in each other were real and essentially we were ready to let. them. go.
So together, that year we decided to begin a journey and that we did. Now that moment wasn't the end of our heart break or our disappointment in life. The last two years had their low points and even today we have bad days. But that wasn't the point.
The important fact was that now we knew that no matter how difficult things got everything would be okay and that like always we would get through them together.
The summer after senior year was my first and most emotional heart break. The guy I had been involved with had woke up one morning and decided to impart on me how amazing I was and how much I deserved the world. He also preceded to tell me that he wasn't ready for a relationship anymore.....what? Yea annoying. That wasn't really the issue, been there done that.
The real dagger in the heart was the girlfriend he acquired a month later. Talk about terrible time. I share this with you queens because I want you to understand how vital good friends are in difficult times.
As you may have guessed again, honey I was saaaaaaaaaaaad. I called Taylor day in and day out mad, over it, "moving on", then mad again, then sad and the cycle began. Until one day, she called me in the middle of the night and said the one thing that changed the way I looked at hard times.
She said "Gabby, I know this sucks but I need you to understand that no mater how bad it gets, just like everything we will get through it". Then she reminded me of all of those mornings in spanish, "You cried but you learned to smile again, you can do that again, and again, and again".
Because of these words, I was able to heal that summer. *this is kinda my thing lol.
I was me again. I was okay not because I thought it wouldn't happen again or life would always be smooth sailing from here. I was okay because I knew that due to a series of difficult events, we knew we could conquer anything.
Around August/September Mr. Confused popped back up suddenly "ready" *eye roll x1000000000
But his time was up and because of that summer I spent with my best friend, going out to eat, going to random movies, crying, laughing, dancing had prepared me for this moment. So I politely told him that our time had passed, I hope all is well and life goes on.
My crown was finally back on my head securely, I did it. We did it. Taylor and I have had our share of ups and downs, disappointments in life and they didn't just stop with high school. They still happen to this day. The difference is we aren't stuck, we aren't helpless and we know that when one door closes a bigger, brighter one is opened for us.
So we laugh, cry, yell, and feel everything our heart has to offer. But we do so with the understanding that eventually, you have to get back up, readjust our crown and keep going.
You are possibly wondering what exactly am I getting at. The point is, I need you to understand how much having a shoulder , just one shoulder to cry on can change your life. That as women we can build bridges together that can get you through the hardest of times, because baby girl, bad breakups are only the beginning. I want you to know that good friends can make the worst day feel like the best.
If you have a friend that can make you laugh in the middle of a mental break down thats a keeper and yes that has happened lol Its probably one of the most mind blowing experiences lol
Along with making room for your crown in every picture, make room for your best friend too.
She'll be your voice of reason and your personal therapist when you can't exactly figure out what it is you feel.
So if you ever see my best friend say hello, give her a hug, ask her hows life. She's a lil gem lol
I hope that today you welcome life with an open heart, an open mind and your bestie right by your side haha and as always Stay Strong!
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